Boo!

I don't wanna stop.
I feel like being chased by something really dark.
I feel like I might be dragged into the world without any light.
That's why I don't wanna stop.
Keep me busy.
Keep running.
So I can stay the way I am.
I don't wanna mess up the things I've built up.

I tell myself to believe in myself and trust myself.
I tell myself.. I will be alright.
I tell myself... things will work out somehow.
I tell myself.... nothing can break me nor my life.

Stay calm and try doing my best all the time.
Look for the lights.
And I will just see the way to go.

Being free from fear is not confidence.
Everyone has fear.

But the faith, honesty and strength make us confident.

We must have faith in people and even more importantly
we must always have faith in ourselves.

I'm fighting it.
I'm balancing it.
You probably don't know.
You probably don't understnad.

You probably will never understand.
But I do have a respect for you and I want be respected too.
I don't care if you cannot understand it.
It's ok.
But I just want you to know I am fighting it.

I have a great family always support me and love me.
I have very good friends who laugh with me and assist me.
I have people who are so close that I often think them as my second family.

But with all those people, I feel lonely.
I am probably not alone but the darkness comes to me and take
me to the deep loneliness and sadness.

I wish I soon find somebody who is all of above but different.

Somebody who fills this gap of my heart.

somethings you might not want to know.
Sometimes it's better if you don't know.

But I know. I cannot pretend that I don't know.

If there was God, I guess I was judged that I could handle this.
So I face to you.
I do not run away.

I see it. I am strong. I keep going to the light.

I will stay where I am and how I am.